A girl I like told me she noticed that I like women a lot.
If this came from another person, I would have taken it as a compliment but somehow, I feel very sad about it. I really like this girl. Not in a sexual or romantic way, I just like her, you know, just ‘like’.
I’m the type not to give attention to what people think of me but somehow I want her to know that I’m a good person, a whole person. A steady person. I don’t want to like plenty women in her eyes. I don’t want her to think that I’m too loose with women. I just want her to have the right opinion of me.
Come to think of it, do I like women a lot?
It appears so to most people. I have plenty women friends. People form opinion when they see you with the opposite sex and sadly in my case, their opinion gave me a label. A label that I encouraged with my words and posts on Facebook and Instagram.
Or maybe I like women but not for the reason people think.While I was growing up, it was quite difficult for me to command and keep the attention of the opposite sex so when I got the confidence to do so, I think I went a little overboard. Just a little.
There’s also the matter of me and Uche in 2014 and it’s subsequent consequences to consider but I left all that behind. I guess people are not as shortsighted as I give them credit for.
I don’t know how to do this but I just want her to know that I don’t like women that much.It’s just a reputation that I foolishly encouraged but which is seeming to cost me… I don’t even know what I feel for this girl.Fuck!
Oh! And congratulate me, I’ll be writing here more.This is my first.